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Stewart Masterson is a character that I created as a teenager. I poured into him all my dreams of an ideal guy and he became the most beloved character I've ever created.

Whether you've already fallen in love with Stewart or are just getting to know him, this page will guide you in where he shows up and how you can follow his journey.

Stewart Masterson was a champion surfer before he lost the use of his legs. Now he's hiding from his past and remaking his life, but he can't escape his own guilt so easily. Only three people in the world know the truth about how he became paralyzed and Stewart plans to keep it that way.

Elizabeth Foster is a young woman with a promising future. She has the perfect family in a nice neighborhood and she is getting ready to graduate from high school and begin her life. The only problem is a dark secret that she has kept hidden all her life. No one would ever guess that the quiet and shy girl is physically attracted to men with disabilities.

After years of trying to make it go away, Elizabeth comes face to face with the paraplegic man of her dreams and can fight it no longer.

As they begin a relationship, she works hard to keep him from finding out the truth about her initial interest. But she can't hide it forever. Their relationship is based on secrets but together they will begin a terrifying journey of self-discovery.

Will Elizabeth and Stewart learn to accept the broken parts in themselves and each other? Will they be able to re-define what it means to be whole or will fear and guilt drive them apart?

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A Note:

This book was first published in 2009. In the years since I wrote it I have come to realize that Elizabeth engages in some very problematic behaviors particularly when it comes to consent. She is not someone to emulate or admire and if I return to write more of her story in the future I will be making sure that she has learned appropriate boundaries and consent.

Even though Elizabeth was very much me at that age I don't really like her anymore. I still think it's worth reading because Stewart is yummy.

The sequel to (W)hole only has Stewart in it a couple of times but it is next in the chronological order of his story:

What do you do when your desire is stronger than you are?

College freshman Elizabeth Foster is beginning to come to terms with her attraction to disabled men but she fears others might judge her harshly if they knew.

And that's exactly what happens.

When her mother learns the truth, she does everything in her power to stop Elizabeth from finding the only kind of man she could love.

Now Elizabeth must learn to trust herself and reject her parents' vision for her future.

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Next up is Out Of Water, which is a shorter story that takes place overlapping with Breath(e) and just after. It is available as an ebook but can also be listened to for free (see link below).

When Stewart fled California in the wake of a surfing accident he left a lot of unfinished business behind. Now he's back to put things right.

But some wounds will never heal, and some actions cannot be undone.

As soon as he arrives, everyone needs something from him. He's trying to handle the burden alone, unwilling to accept that his first love might still be interested in him despite his wheelchair.

"Leah was already there. She was leaning over the bar, wearing a mini skirt that didn’t quite cover her butt and a sport’s bra. Her warm honey skin glistened, still wet from swimming. The few patrons inside were all riveted to her. As Stewart’s wheels rumbled onto the wooden floor, she turned and fixed him with her well-honed siren smile."